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First off. No one has permission to link to this post, or to repost or transmit this post in anyway shape or form without my permission. This is very personal to me...

Dana Ludeking (c) 2009 ALL rights reserved.

First off many know I have been diagnosed with Disassociated Identity Disorder Symptoms.. But they are not sure why the symptoms and not the full blown disorder.. It is because as long as Post Traumatic Stress or Values conflicts are not causing issues there is no disorder here.. There is however the serious challenge in identity, and day to day living.

Most who grew up with me knew me by various nicknames..
and not by my real first name Dana...The most common long standing nickname was "Mother Nature" But that is a different long story to be shared.

Many have not known about "Casey" Jones.. and I will tell you why I kept this hidden as strong as I could until the last few years.

Around the age of 6 I met some very abusive child psychologists and adults. Who wanted to use me in their studied to prove "Multiple personalities" do exist. If you call me those two words I will rip your head off and spit it to pieces. Because.. Casey and I are not multiples we are the same individual approaching two different life times.

Mr. Jonathan Luther "Casey" Jones.. died in a train wreck in year 1900.
You can look in the search engines for his story the real historical story of him. ...

But this here is my story of How Casey was always there in my own life...